Realized today that I do, indeed, know my daily "baseline". It's what I've been experiencing since Dave got arrested, I guess. I'm talking about the sleep too much, guilt & regret and new promises never to do it again. Basically, I've been living 6 months without any other addictions (i.e. love, relationships) except food and now I realize THIS is my norm at 80 mg prozac. My "norm" is to sleep too much, regret it, make new promises, then start the cycle again. It's some kind of low-grade depression that I've experienced for many years. I just don't have a boyfriend to provide a distraction from myself (i.e. my low-grade depression).
I feel better having identified this today. I feel like I'm closer to being the person I want to be- fit, healthy, pursing my life in a balanced manner. We'll see what happens next. Yay!
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